Lonely Moments

Lonely Moments

On some nights,
when you can’t turn off the voices in your head
and your demons come out to play with you some more.
When you toss the pillows and
pull up the blanket coherently so you can sleep.
You even plug in your earphones to listen some music to drift away
and check out all 7345 images saved in your phone all at once .

On some nights when your heart wants to run wild free underneath the night sky,
or somewhere, anywhere but here.
Yet you are stuck in four corners of your tiny home.
Just remember on those nights
even on such lonely moments,

I still think of you.

– Abirami Pillai 

Empty Void Spaces

Empty Void Spaces

I get it. All right.
You are filling up your soul, no not your soul; you are trying to fill the void that occurred to you few years ago.
I don’t know how the void came into existence. I honestly don’t know.
Maybe someone walked out of your life or else maybe you didn’t get the love you deserved.
It can be also because life took you somewhere and you didn’t wanted to end up there.
It might be also due to your mistake of your past or fear of future.
Your might be also in waiting for something to arrive or must be tired of waiting forever.
I don’t know why this void came into existence.
But all I know there exist a void inside and you are trying to fill it with all the things you can get hands on.
With music, books, movies, sports, sometimes even with a drink or two.
You are trying to fill as fast as you can with all the things you can avail to.

But if you must know, know this
these empty void spaces inside you
can be only filled up by another human
Cause flesh beholds only flesh, nothing less or nothing more.
And if you are enough lucky
you might eventually find that human
who comes into your life and fill these void
without your permission and take you to whole new reality!

– Abirami Pillai

believe

Believe


On nights like these,
when you question everything you held on to.
I hope these words I write, finds you.
It finds you and embraces all of you and yourself.
That it’s okay to believe in something that might or might not exist.
But it is very important that you still ‘BELIEVE’

– Abirami Pillai


 

Infinities

Infinities

Maybe we are never supposed to know;
some infinities are remained to be unsolved.
Love will be always one of them.
                                              
-Abirami Pillai

 

almosts

Almosts!


To all the almosts of my life

To all the friendships I almost made

To all the words I almost said

To all the books I almost read

To all the movies I almost watched

To all the music I almost listened

To all the poems I almost wrote

To all the coffee dates I almost went

To all the places I almost visited

To all the goodbyes I almost said

To the stranger whom I almost fell in love with

To all the almost “I love yous”,

To all the almosts of my life

Just know that you are momentous to me; now & Forever.

–          Abirami Pillai

 

Calvin & Hobbes

 

Calvin : I wonder sometimes, even after every trust is broken, all the promises made are torn apart and all the hopes of heart are shattered to tiny pieces, why do we still keep loving people?

Hobbes : Maybe, the world  won’t make sense without them. In fact anything without them makes no sense at all. That’s why we keep loving them.

-Abirami Pillai

Epiphany

Epiphany

Epiphany


Did your mind finally accepted the fact that your heart still longs for me in the night or is it still denying just like old days?

When your heart screamed from top of its voice to you and whereas your mouth didn’t mumbled a single thing?

It’s true that your heart found an impeccable calm in this disastrous storm and it didn’t wanted it to stop;

Maybe that’s why it didn’t wanted to say anything.

And your brain kept shrieking  all the things you never wanted to hear.

Moreover you even started to believe it all and you denied the love until the end.

But your heart knows that aint true; because eyes never lie, or do they?

You didn’t think there existed a heart inside you until fell in love or did you?

– Abirami Pillai