I get it. All right.
You are filling up your soul, no not your soul; you are trying to fill the void that occurred to you few years ago.
I don’t know how the void came into existence. I honestly don’t know.
Maybe someone walked out of your life or else maybe you didn’t get the love you deserved.
It can be also because life took you somewhere and you didn’t wanted to end up there.
It might be also due to your mistake of your past or fear of future.
Your might be also in waiting for something to arrive or must be tired of waiting forever.
I don’t know why this void came into existence.
But all I know there exist a void inside and you are trying to fill it with all the things you can get hands on.
With music, books, movies, sports, sometimes even with a drink or two.
You are trying to fill as fast as you can with all the things you can avail to.
But if you must know, know this
these empty void spaces inside you
can be only filled up by another human
Cause flesh beholds only flesh, nothing less or nothing more.
And if you are enough lucky
you might eventually find that human
who comes into your life and fill these void
without your permission and take you to whole new reality!
On nights like these, when you question everything you held on to. I hope these words I write, finds you. It finds you and embraces all of you and yourself. That it’s okay to believe in something that might or might not exist. But it is very important that you still ‘BELIEVE’
He said “The dark night sky resembles the sadness and pain of our life and whereas happiness, it’s more like the shooting star you know short and magical; but remember one thing you can’t view any shooting stars without the dark sky.”
Our Sadness is very much essential to enjoy our happiness.
I am not like other people believe me, I am not ;
I don’t have much but even if I had all the things, I won’t brag about it;
All I do have is my soul and it is alive.
You see my soul, it wants something else.
Something more than meaningless conversation.
It needs something more than temporary people.
It aches for something real and my soul is and always have been old school.
It also knows time changes and people have to change with it but it doesn’t believe in modern love values.
It aches for something passionate that would kill me but also make me feel alive at a same time.
My soul doesn’t settles for ordinary things that’s why every night,
I stay awake lonely and try to make sense of all the things
in my head, heart , people and sometimes universe.
At times my soul believes there exists people:
Who would love a mixtape from someone,
Who would prefer letters instead of text messages,
Who would love to run on empty beaches barefoot,
Who are little more alive at rather than in daylight,
Who would gaze at stars hopelessly to fall in love with someone, someday,
Who would sing their heart tune even if there is nothing cheerful to sing about,
Who would die for you.
My soul still believes that this kind of people do exist;
And if I keep looking for eventually I will find them or more better I will become like them.
You see these kind of people make the world more alive;These kind of people make more sense to me,
People who come and show to you that even the stars can be counted.
And the only ones worth dying for.
Being a nerd,bookworm, geek I loved going to school, and getting education. I was always curious and enthusiastic to learn new things.May be that’s why I took Science in my Junior year college because I wanted to learn about things. After my Junior college, I took Computer Science as my major in Bachelor’s. I like the way compute works, I still consider it as some sort of magic even though I understand the logic behind how it actually works. The thing about learning is I never really got tired of it and maybe that’s why I was so keen on my studies and being graduate. So I was 200% sure of completing my degree and never took a worry of any bit. But Life play its own card, right?
The day – sorry it was declared at night was one of the night I wont forget ever in my life. I saw my results and it showed as Unsuccessful and I was shocked because in my whole life I didn’t what was I supposed to feel or do if I ever failed in exam.Should I cry? How to say to my parents? What will happen now, will it be end of the my world? Even though my friend didn’t believed I failed in my exams; he was supportive but I hated him for a moment there u know; my exams went far better than him.I said to my parents and I started sobbing till I could fell asleep. You known when your only dreams shatter to pieces, a piece of you dies little at that moment. Somehow when I woke up that morning I asked to my self can’t I be sleeping like and deny this reality. For days I kept crying. I kept crying at night, at trains, at my office, during lunch even in my dreams.I kept crying until all my tears were none. I was coping up with reality and doing all the further process like submitted for revaluation and re-exam yet I kept thinking why this kind of reality existed. I kept checking for results but there were no luck.I lost all my hope and and started preparing my for exams.
After few months my results for revaluation were declared and this time I didn’t even bothered to check it. I told my brother too check it and after 20 minutes I get a call from him saying “You passed” and I replied back “really.” At that moment something was perfect and somehow my heart was happy . I graduated and I don’t know how to put that feeling in exact words but I can say it was moment of Euphoria for me.So here I am a proud graduate of Computer Science.
Funny thing about life is it throws anything at us and we have to play it really well. It could give you life time of happiness in single second or even worse life long of sadness too.Its all up to us how we take it in and live it.
I have always loved science since my childhood days. Science has always fascinated me so I studied them with deep curiosity.There are various laws about energy, action, motion, atoms, etc. I have learned about them in science lectures; out of them there are laws which always get me also known as Newton’s third law of motion : “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.”and law of conservation of energy which states that : “Energy can neither be created nor destroyed; rather, it transforms from one form to another.” I don’t know why I always find these two laws amusing and how much truth they hold not only in physics but in other matters of life. I find this two laws widely applicable in life at least in my life.
Life changes every second, One day I will be Happy but there may be possibility of me being sad next day. I may have lot of friends in past but eventually I may lose them or get apart but that doesn’t mean I may not have new friends.Just like what Matthew Mcconaughey said in Interstellar “You have to leave something behind to go forward.” What may be yours tonight maybe somebody else tomorrow. Funny thing, Newton is really genius, he gave us whole understanding of our lives in two lines what we keeps us searching in our whole lives. So remember this whoever is reading this today maybe bad but I am sure that tomorrow will be good, different and Happy until then laugh at the odds and be happy at least try to be.