There are things I can’t comprehend,
I scream them and ask to you;
“Why does my dream feels like a north star on a dark night?”
“The people I love seem far away, like a lighthouse in stormy sea.”

And then you silently whisper into my ears
“That’s how the Seafarer found his way to home, isn’t it ?”

-Abirami Pillai

Empty Void Spaces

Empty Void Spaces

I get it. All right.
You are filling up your soul, no not your soul; you are trying to fill the void that occurred to you few years ago.
I don’t know how the void came into existence. I honestly don’t know.
Maybe someone walked out of your life or else maybe you didn’t get the love you deserved.
It can be also because life took you somewhere and you didn’t wanted to end up there.
It might be also due to your mistake of your past or fear of future.
Your might be also in waiting for something to arrive or must be tired of waiting forever.
I don’t know why this void came into existence.
But all I know there exist a void inside and you are trying to fill it with all the things you can get hands on.
With music, books, movies, sports, sometimes even with a drink or two.
You are trying to fill as fast as you can with all the things you can avail to.

But if you must know, know this
these empty void spaces inside you
can be only filled up by another human
Cause flesh beholds only flesh, nothing less or nothing more.
And if you are enough lucky
you might eventually find that human
who comes into your life and fill these void
without your permission and take you to whole new reality!

– Abirami Pillai



On nights like these,
when you question everything you held on to.
I hope these words I write, finds you.
It finds you and embraces all of you and yourself.
That it’s okay to believe in something that might or might not exist.
But it is very important that you still ‘BELIEVE’

– Abirami Pillai


Happiness & Sadness……

Shooting stars and the night sky

Shooting stars and night sky

He said “The dark night sky resembles the sadness and pain of our life and whereas happiness, it’s more like the shooting star you know short and magical; but remember one thing you can’t view any shooting stars without the dark sky.”

Our Sadness is very much essential to enjoy our happiness.

– Abirami Pillai

Art by PascalCampion


Passion Of An Old Soul

I am not like other people believe me, I am not ;
I don’t have much but even if I had all the things, I won’t brag about it;
All I do have is my soul and it is alive.
You see my soul, it wants something else.
Something more than meaningless conversation.
It needs something more than temporary people.
It aches for something real and my soul is and always have been old school.
It also knows time changes and people have to change with it but it doesn’t believe in modern love values.
It aches for something passionate that would kill me but also make me feel alive at a same time.
My soul doesn’t settles for ordinary things that’s why every night,
I stay awake lonely and try to make sense  of all the things
in my head, heart , people and sometimes universe.

At times my soul believes there exists people:
Who would love a mixtape from someone,
Who would prefer letters instead of text messages,
Who would love to run on empty beaches barefoot,
Who are little more alive at rather than in daylight,
Who would gaze at stars hopelessly to fall in love with someone, someday,
Who would sing their heart tune even if there is nothing cheerful to sing about,
Who would die for you.
My soul still believes that this kind of people do exist;
And if I keep looking for eventually I will find them or more better I will become like them.
You see these kind of people make the world more alive;These kind of people make more sense to me,

People who come and show to you that even the stars can be counted.
And the only ones worth dying for.

-Abirami Pillai

Science & Life

I have always loved science since my childhood days. Science has always fascinated me so I studied them with deep curiosity.There are various laws about energy, action, motion, atoms, etc. I have learned about them in science lectures; out of them there are laws which always get me also known as Newton’s third law of motion : “For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.”and law of conservation of energy which states that : “Energy can neither be created nor destroyed; rather, it transforms from one form to another.” I don’t know why I always find these two laws amusing and how much truth they hold not only in physics but in other matters of life. I find this two laws widely applicable in life at least in my life.

 Life changes every second, One day I will be Happy but there may be possibility of me  being sad next day. I may have lot of friends in past but eventually I may lose them or get apart but that doesn’t mean I may not have new friends.Just like what Matthew Mcconaughey said in Interstellar  “You have to leave something behind to go forward.” What may be yours tonight maybe somebody else tomorrow. Funny thing, Newton is really genius, he gave  us whole understanding of our lives in two lines what we keeps us searching in our  whole lives. So remember this whoever is reading this  today maybe bad but I am sure that tomorrow will be good, different and Happy until then laugh at the odds and be happy at least try to be.