Stay.

I read someone’s tweet last night,
It was something like this:
“That you sleep next to someone for years and then one day you can’t anymore?”
The author said, he can never understand how that works and honestly even I can’t.

Everyday, I look at people falling in and out of love.
Falling in, it’s a wonderful part but
when they fall out, it breaks my heart every now and then.

Everyday, I look at them and believe in love lesser and less.

Last night, you asked me the same,
I didn’t have any answer for you;
because  I thought there won’t be possibility of one.

If you have to know,
know this.
Everytime, I look at you;
you are little less strange than ever.

And if I could find million reason to love you when I wasn’t looking for one;
guess how much could I find, if I want you to stay.

– Abirami Pillai

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believe

Believe


On nights like these,
when you question everything you held on to.
I hope these words I write, finds you.
It finds you and embraces all of you and yourself.
That it’s okay to believe in something that might or might not exist.
But it is very important that you still ‘BELIEVE’

– Abirami Pillai


 

Infinities

Infinities

Maybe we are never supposed to know;
some infinities are remained to be unsolved.
Love will be always one of them.
                                              
-Abirami Pillai

 

almosts

Almosts!


To all the almosts of my life

To all the friendships I almost made

To all the words I almost said

To all the books I almost read

To all the movies I almost watched

To all the music I almost listened

To all the poems I almost wrote

To all the coffee dates I almost went

To all the places I almost visited

To all the goodbyes I almost said

To the stranger whom I almost fell in love with

To all the almost “I love yous”,

To all the almosts of my life

Just know that you are momentous to me; now & Forever.

–          Abirami Pillai

 

Epiphany

Epiphany

Epiphany


Did your mind finally accepted the fact that your heart still longs for me in the night or is it still denying just like old days?

When your heart screamed from top of its voice to you and whereas your mouth didn’t mumbled a single thing?

It’s true that your heart found an impeccable calm in this disastrous storm and it didn’t wanted it to stop;

Maybe that’s why it didn’t wanted to say anything.

And your brain kept shrieking  all the things you never wanted to hear.

Moreover you even started to believe it all and you denied the love until the end.

But your heart knows that aint true; because eyes never lie, or do they?

You didn’t think there existed a heart inside you until fell in love or did you?

– Abirami Pillai


Desolation Times

Times Of Desolation


i.  Where were you on days I was trying so hard to breathe and slept crying all night?

Wasn’t my love supposed to succour me and tell ‘It’s okay’?

ii.  Where were you when I had an accident and my body was covered up with plasters and bandages?

Shouldn’t you be present there to caress my scars and say “You still look beautiful”?

iii.  Where were you when my only dream got shattered into pieces and my faith got devastated?

I thought you would run and come up to me and say “It’s just matter of time, baby.”

iv.  Where were you when everyone around me made my world little bit more alone and sad?

Wasn’t you supposed to be some kind of Superman and rescue me away to another universe?

Then I realized, when was I ever present there to ease you in your times of desolation?

I am too selfish to ask for you to be present in mine, aren’t I?
-Abirami Pillai